The Positives of Ex Wallaby

Yes, there's no lingering doubt that ICT has been one of the loathes of my life, but still I can take positives from it. I just read that positive thinking can very much influence one's perspective of an event and therefore making it less painful and enhances a more positive outlook and better chances of success in life.

So what positives can I draw from this lengthly exercise? (26days)

- This is my 5th ICT, meaning there's only 2 Hi-keys to go b4 completion.
- It happens at a time when there isn't much disruption to my personal life. (i.e. no further studies, no organ exams, etc)
- By the time I start my further studies in 2010/2011, there's a good chance I may have completed all my Hi-keys. (or maybe only 1 hi-key remains)
- Going to ICT with many friends that I know. By missing this ICT, there's a chance I may be sent to another exercise with an unfamiliar unit.
- Excellent opportunity to be independent.

A "New" Beginning

Another "New" beginning awaits at DOS today.

Yesterday, the medical checkups and deferment issues brought back memories of 1995 yet again. Are all these part of His plan? Actions were taken which I feel were essential but not necessary correct. How does God feel about what I've done? Have I gone a step too far? Or is this the survival instinct that He has built in me?

Bad Memories

Do they still haunt me? It has been 13 years since the worst episode of my life. Have I really put it all behind me?

This is another day when I feel I had to subtley explain why National Service is such a big obstacle and generated so much doubts in me. I realised this could even be harder than explaining why I'm leaving ITE again even though I'm in no mood to explain either.

I'll move on from the latter. Perhaps I'll be free from the former in 5 years.... Really? The dent can be hammered back to shape, but the scars never disappear.

Back in a Shell

I can't believe how easily my earlier blog fell into the hands of someone whom I wasn't too comfortable to share.

I've contemplated going back to easyjournal, but blogspot allows me room for creativity.